Who warned/banned you?: Unknown, it doesn't matter to me.
Date of Warn/Ban: Unknown, it doesn't matter to me.
Ban Length: Permanent.
Warn/Ban Reason: ERP, NITRP, FRP, MASS KOS, MINGE, ETC
Why should we remove warn/ban?: Not really
Evidence/Other:
This was less to try and be unbanned and more to exonerate myself from what was said. I am 14 now. I am not 16+. I am not 20+. I am not a pedophile hunter. I am not a pedophile.
I have struggled for a good portion of my life with being around bad people, the reason why I would engage in sex RP when I was 12 to early 13 is because I had no support system to drag me out of my awful behavior. It was also because I was experiencing what I can only explain as being hypersexual as a response to trauma from my eldest brother groping me multiple times. I reported him to my school in an Email I can show to you guys if you want, but what ended up happening is he tried to sleep with me and then used the Canadian embassy in a country I was in (Qatar) to flee to Canada. My father apparently didn't want "our family reputation to be shamed" so he gave him a lot of money to make it and not go broke in Canada. I think it should be understood that you should NOT have to explain trauma and reopen wounds to heal the accusations of the past but here we are. I also think it should be understood that you shouldn't need to show ANY personal information, let alone things like your birth certificate which people demanded out of me. ESPECIALLY if you are a minor, I've talked with staff in this server and they have echoed that which helped me to not share information that I reasonably shouldn't have.
I am not a pedophile hunter, I will never be one. Occasionally, I relapse and a mental health community or friends in private would help me get out of a sexually abusive relationship that I've relapsed into with an adult. This has lead to the issues of hypersexuality temporarily reemerging and such.
That is why I'd later report sexual interactions I've had with adults who were in a sexual relationship with me knowing my age. I had mental health communities help me get out of those awful feelings that I would get that would convince me to let the adult do what they wanted.
Being a underaged trauma victim and having relapses does NOT make you a pedophile hunter.
Even then, a lot of the people I was around when I was mid-13 were also untrustworthy and creepy in a sense, even the closest ones who I thought I could depend on.
Like Prisonmateluke, a man in his 20's who tried to find where I lived and send me chew toys asking me to send pictures of me chewing on the chew toys.
Thankfully I've gotten away from them but it's left me paranoid as to which of my friend group would try to be creepy.
It is a cycle that I know I need to break, having relapses and trusting people I shouldn't and I'm trying.
I just hope this addresses some of the issues.
Sincerely~
Lia.
Addition:
I did not try to ban evade.
I would move around countries a lot.
When I was 12 it was during a tour through Europe.
When I was early 13 it was between Pakistan and Qatar more or less.
At that time I also got a new PC which I suspect is why you guys ended up flagging a new device and banning it, assuming I used a sibling's device.
I can take a pic of said PC but idk how to send it to my computer
In game, you were insufferable, had no intent to RP. I remember you joining VC and trying to sound like a 12 year old girl? Also people were saying you sounded like 6063
Big -1, if it's true im sorry but sounds like a sob story to me
It's not a sob story. It's a explanation of what was going on in my life that I think might explain why everything happened the way it did.
I also like to believe I've changed in behavior
Also that's because I'm trans which is why I use they/them and I was trying to do vocal training.
In no way does what happened justify anything, I just want the context to be out there to explain my behavior and rationalize it to myself and for the false claims by Dodgy and others of me being a pedophile to be crushed where it stands.
This is more of me trying to let go, at this point and to let go of what happened back then and remove the accusations from my name that still follow me online despite them being false.
I was literally 12.
I don't want my life or identity to be destroyed for what I did when I was literally *12*.
The internet has done this so many times in the past. When I was mid-13 I began getting into the drama community with Prisonmateluke and I saw a lot of false accusations towards minors like me that tried to cancel them.
Look at Kittydog for example, a person who behaved hypersexually and was groomed and was more or less cancelled for being a bad person when they were groomed.
Edit: The bad behavior was heavily correlated to the grooming and was more or less them following the wishes and requests of their groomer.
I know that what I did was not right, but I want to be able to forgive myself and have others around me forgive me for what I did so I can move on.
People have told me this and I hope we both feel this way:
I still have my life ahead of me, I am not a bad person until I stand by what I did and begin supporting it. What I did when I was 12 wont matter. It shouldn't matter, I'm past that now.
I hope you are all past it too.
If you want, you can see how I RP for a bit. Nowadays I just more or less prefer chilling and yeah, I don't really see myself as the same person and I don't really like arguing or serious RP as much anymore. I can do faces and everything when need be but yeah, I no longer am, well, a dick in RP, I hope.
Not sure why you're making this appeal and attempting to provide evidence at the end if you claim that this is less to be unbanned and more to exonerate yourself.
Regardless, this isn't America's Got Talent. Backstories have no bearing on appeals and will not be taken into consideration. With that said, as was explained to you the fourth time (out of five including this appeal) you appealed this ban, you created a new steam account to a.) play on the server, which you were already banned on, and b.) join Ballista, a subdivision that you were blacklisted from. Even if this did not take place, the MRDM/ERP/Minge/LTAP all still remains.
I don't know what you were attempting to accomplish when making this. Appeal denied, please stop making further appeals.
Optamistic™Banned 19 Jul 21 at 9:52am EditedDiscord Username: N/A *I have multiple Discord accounts at this point*
Steam ID: STEAM_0:1:119964714
Who warned/banned you?: Unknown, it doesn't matter to me.
Date of Warn/Ban: Unknown, it doesn't matter to me.
Ban Length: Permanent.
Warn/Ban Reason: ERP, NITRP, FRP, MASS KOS, MINGE, ETC
Why should we remove warn/ban?: Not really
Evidence/Other:
This was less to try and be unbanned and more to exonerate myself from what was said.
I am 14 now.
I am not 16+.
I am not 20+.
I am not a pedophile hunter.
I am not a pedophile.
I have struggled for a good portion of my life with being around bad people, the reason why I would engage in sex RP when I was 12 to early 13 is because I had no support system to drag me out of my awful behavior. It was also because I was experiencing what I can only explain as being hypersexual as a response to trauma from my eldest brother groping me multiple times.
I reported him to my school in an Email I can show to you guys if you want, but what ended up happening is he tried to sleep with me and then used the Canadian embassy in a country I was in (Qatar) to flee to Canada. My father apparently didn't want "our family reputation to be shamed" so he gave him a lot of money to make it and not go broke in Canada.
I think it should be understood that you should NOT have to explain trauma and reopen wounds to heal the accusations of the past but here we are.
I also think it should be understood that you shouldn't need to show ANY personal information, let alone things like your birth certificate which people demanded out of me. ESPECIALLY if you are a minor, I've talked with staff in this server and they have echoed that which helped me to not share information that I reasonably shouldn't have.
I am not a pedophile hunter, I will never be one. Occasionally, I relapse and a mental health community or friends in private would help me get out of a sexually abusive relationship that I've relapsed into with an adult. This has lead to the issues of hypersexuality temporarily reemerging and such.
That is why I'd later report sexual interactions I've had with adults who were in a sexual relationship with me knowing my age. I had mental health communities help me get out of those awful feelings that I would get that would convince me to let the adult do what they wanted.
Being a underaged trauma victim and having relapses does NOT make you a pedophile hunter.
Even then, a lot of the people I was around when I was mid-13 were also untrustworthy and creepy in a sense, even the closest ones who I thought I could depend on.
Like Prisonmateluke, a man in his 20's who tried to find where I lived and send me chew toys asking me to send pictures of me chewing on the chew toys.
Thankfully I've gotten away from them but it's left me paranoid as to which of my friend group would try to be creepy.
It is a cycle that I know I need to break, having relapses and trusting people I shouldn't and I'm trying.
I just hope this addresses some of the issues.
Sincerely~
Lia.
Addition:
I did not try to ban evade.
I would move around countries a lot.
When I was 12 it was during a tour through Europe.
When I was early 13 it was between Pakistan and Qatar more or less.
At that time I also got a new PC which I suspect is why you guys ended up flagging a new device and banning it, assuming I used a sibling's device.
I can take a pic of said PC but idk how to send it to my computer
Big -1, if it's true im sorry but sounds like a sob story to me
Optamistic™Banned 19 Jul 21 at 11:28am EditedI also like to believe I've changed in behavior
Also that's because I'm trans which is why I use they/them and I was trying to do vocal training.
In no way does what happened justify anything, I just want the context to be out there to explain my behavior and rationalize it to myself and for the false claims by Dodgy and others of me being a pedophile to be crushed where it stands.
This is more of me trying to let go, at this point and to let go of what happened back then and remove the accusations from my name that still follow me online despite them being false.
I was literally 12.
I don't want my life or identity to be destroyed for what I did when I was literally *12*.
The internet has done this so many times in the past. When I was mid-13 I began getting into the drama community with Prisonmateluke and I saw a lot of false accusations towards minors like me that tried to cancel them.
Look at Kittydog for example, a person who behaved hypersexually and was groomed and was more or less cancelled for being a bad person when they were groomed.
Edit: The bad behavior was heavily correlated to the grooming and was more or less them following the wishes and requests of their groomer.
I know that what I did was not right, but I want to be able to forgive myself and have others around me forgive me for what I did so I can move on.
People have told me this and I hope we both feel this way:
I still have my life ahead of me, I am not a bad person until I stand by what I did and begin supporting it. What I did when I was 12 wont matter. It shouldn't matter, I'm past that now.
I hope you are all past it too.
If you want, you can see how I RP for a bit. Nowadays I just more or less prefer chilling and yeah, I don't really see myself as the same person and I don't really like arguing or serious RP as much anymore. I can do faces and everything when need be but yeah, I no longer am, well, a dick in RP, I hope.
Regardless, this isn't America's Got Talent. Backstories have no bearing on appeals and will not be taken into consideration. With that said, as was explained to you the fourth time (out of five including this appeal) you appealed this ban, you created a new steam account to a.) play on the server, which you were already banned on, and b.) join Ballista, a subdivision that you were blacklisted from. Even if this did not take place, the MRDM/ERP/Minge/LTAP all still remains.
I don't know what you were attempting to accomplish when making this. Appeal denied, please stop making further appeals.